coughing my ass off.

变成药罐子了..

-______-

 

 

PS, 本想用第一句话当标题,结果弹出如下警告:

"此项标题包含禁止使用的词语。请从此项标题中删除禁止使用的词语"..

汗..

倔强到连help都不愿说,

固执得连话都不想多讲.

 

 

其实是自己不知道该怎么办.

back to bing.

 

回来的路上如无意外地大塞车.

平时四个小时的路开了七个小时才到,

还要因为人太多+小车半路坏掉,

剩下的那两个小时只能站在车里晃啊晃的..

最后晃得想吐得不行只好直接就坐在地上了..= =

 

晕啊晕的回到学校,

很不好意思地叫人来接..对不起麻烦你了..U_U

本想好好休息一下,

然后发现hw多到能让我惊讶得说不出话..

结论很简单: stay up all nite ba~

为了撑下去, took了caffeine pill..= =

it did make me hyped last nite,

但今天早上回dorm时走路都成"S"形了..-_-

还好开始上课又有好转..

 

说起来,今天早上回学校时走在路上看到很漂亮的朝霞啊.

原来每天我们睡觉的时候错过了这么美的惊心动魄的景象..

感激,

自己能目睹这种壮丽,

茫茫苍穹下觉得人真的很渺小..

 

 

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每次跟不同的人交往都像从一个世界去到另外一个世界,

我的思想我的方式我的行为都不由得因而发生些微改变.

好象越来越不知道自己是个怎样的人了,

更加不要说叫我用几个词来描绘自己.

so many possibilities,

i'm so undefined.

 

想很多东西,

可是说不出来.

会觉得很uncertain,

飘飘的, 像zero gracity.

i dun no what i'm going,

我是每天走一步算一步吗?

 

只想尽可能尝试更多不同的事,

不管是伤心难过还是喜悦快乐.

因为无论如何这些经历都会时间流逝而沉淀成我生命的一部分,

随我四处奔走而日益浓醇.

这样想着,就不会后悔做过的事,

不害怕要面对的现实,

不觉得恐惧..

能坦然地过下去吧.

 

还是会坚持自己的principle,

不管环境怎么变自己怎么变,

心里有些坚持不会变,

不想去在意其他人怎么说.

连我自己都不能完全解释自己,

何况身边的人?

 

他就要回GZ,

也许是因为这样吧他路上跟我讲了很多他以前中学的事.

那种感觉很熟悉,

不愧是同一个城市出来的人.

那些讲话的方式语言发生过的事情无一不散发着GZ的气息.

想回以前疯狂的日子,

尽管知道自己要长大要告别那段时光,

但足够收藏在心里,

那份热情和热烈不会丢掉.

起码我知道我来自哪里, 不觉得单薄.

 

 

胡思乱想梦呓了一大堆呢.

just being thankful.

 

Four-leaf Clover,

素在笼子里不断重复着:

"i want happiness"..

"i want happiness"..

"i want happiness"..

sings softly,

she sings softly.

 

 

今天换回以前在GZ用的包包,

一个人生活要更加倍努力.

but rite now, i want home.

sweet home.

 

 

还不错吧.

 

意外的是看到那队band想起所有以前Seven Head的事..

台上那些夹band的人,

guitar, bass, drum, cable, 效果器, 音箱..

所有熟悉的东西.

以前我们哪一次开show练习时不是手忙脚乱地弄器材?

还有几个人缩在小小的房间里练歌, 坏掉的空调, 震耳欲聋的音效, 乐器反串, 午休, 经常被学校门口那个很凶的阿伯盘问..

所有的所有都确确实实地存在过..

有哭的冲动,

差点眼泪就想掉出来了,还好周围够黑.

为的是那份感动吧..

因为觉得像是在看我们的以前,

927中秋饭堂, 平安夜, 音乐节, converse..

 

其实也知道一切都变了,

大家都分散在世界各地忙着不同的事,

时间不断流,

大家都在变,都会长大,

S.H不可能回到原原本本那样.

但起码现在我仍会想起那些年少轻狂的日子,

会觉得幸福美好..

庆幸有过那段经历,

确实是我最宝贵的回忆之一..

看到这里的SH, 你们呢?

 

Dragon Nite结束后临走时拿了好多气球.

放在房间里Kayla一定会很高兴吧! ^^

 

还有,既然决定了,

那就好好守着和祝福身边的人吧,

这是我现在唯一可以做的.

so far, overall觉得自己还算勇敢,

"不赖嘛~"

 

 

PS. i'm really not a pic-person..

......不是好看又不上相就是双重打击嘛......-_-

hate taking photos..daaaaaaa..=A=

他说,

人生就像热气球,

梦想就像气球上的麻袋.

想要飞得越高,

就必须把梦想一个个抛掉.

 

 

星星的闪烁.

花的矜雅.

蝴蝶的随风.

狼的野性.

 

 

 

back.

uploaded pics.

 

many unexpected things happened during the weekend,

but still,

i'll take it as a good experience,

n i had fun ar,

that's enough lar~

 

feel like i was singing all the way down to city,

then all the way back to bing..= =

we just plugged in ipod or played CD's on the way,

n it felt really good when ppl were singing songs togather! >.<

fortunately my throat doesnt hurt so far..

 

drank at the ball.

guess i was the youngest at the ball..

ummm..tried best to make myself look older~

the funny thing is,

at first i asked if they had any juice,

n they were like: this is marine ball! how could u expect they have juice? = =

 

mix drinks (cocktails?) was good ar~

tempted to try all kinds of drinks they had..

like Malidu Bay Breeze n Sex on the Beach most!

had couple more, tasted bit like juice..= =

 

jack & jerry's cars both broke down "reasonlessly" on saturday,

how weird is that..

jerry had to leave his car in city for like a week,

n jack had to take the responsibility to drive ppl everywhere..

guess sat was not a day for cars.

 

met Alice n May in city.

they r sooo nice~i like them!

 

we were planning 直落 to go to the bar in midtown after the ball,

but since May didnt have her ID n i'm underaged,

so couldnt get in..

n then jack's car broke..

then called help, called cops,

feel sorry i couldnt help..

 

Wenling got kidney infection n has to stay in hospital,

Kalon called them on sunday n told them.

we speeded on the way back n went to visit Wenling.

she didnt look good..

've been so worried..

hope she gets better lar.. wanna do something for her..

 

hate myself, i so wanted to help, but i couldnt do anything.

so when j & j's cars broke down..all i could do just sit there n watch them frustrating..

 

other than Wenling's illness, everything is so far so ba..

the only thing i kinda feel bad about is that i missed the fun sat nite..

they were playing crazily.. >.<

 

btw.. my hw..-_________-

其实专心study都可以系一件好有趣既事.

其实稳到野可以focus on都可以系一种充实既幸福.

呢几次既tests都好衰,

要Di起心肝努力.

 

系时候停止了.

之前玩的太颠玩出左火,

以后五敢了, 玩五起.

林翻起,

突然发现或者系潜意识挂住屋企既表现..

虽然自认五会.

我知自己系果种几难过都可以笑得出来玩得好颠既烂人.

 

好多人话我五似freshmen.

某D理由竟然同lawi好耐以前对我既comment异曲同工:

"你D眼神入边有D野,比人感觉五系傻下傻下懵下懵下果种."

(lawi我五知你仲记五记得..真系好耐以前了)

我只系比较中意望住人地既眼讲野罢了,

或者真系有D咩野我自己都五知.

 

有D惊留系房间,五知点解. (其实有解)

记得aca你都同我讲过相似既野..

呢排kayla都好少翻来,

五中意一个人系房.

study还好,

但每日训觉起身时见到空空既房间就觉得心寒,五知点解. (呢个真系无解)

以后应该会多D去lib挂.

 

我中意身边所有既人.

中意同五同既人倾计,听五同既人讲距地既故事.

点都好,仍然可以笑住对待每一日,

义无反顾甘去照顾好周围既人.

无怪过任何人,

或者可能仲有断续既林五开,

但我相信自己已经好坦然.

话晒,其实根本咩都无发生过..

多谢果D关心我既人..

 

 

系朋友space见到一句话:

"青春就是要用来挥霍的."

我中意同敬佩活得有主见既女孩.

大个女,要争气,要知道咩值得咩五值得.

相信自己做得到.

 

"那些敢爱敢恨,忠于自己的女子."

事情开始朝着简单明了的方向前进,

which is good~

已经开始习惯这样了,

只是有时觉得自己是不折不扣的大笨蛋..=_=

 

发觉历史总是惊人地相似,

三年一个循环吗?..0_0

 

昨天下雪了喔.

technically不是bing的第一场雪,

不过是自己看到的第一场,

所以还是蛮兴奋的.

所以人还真是唯心的动物..

 

所以换个角度来看就可以什么都很不一样了.

加油吧~

 

happy 4 u guys btw~ ^^

脖子上的伤疤这几天突然痛起来,

已经三个月了应该不会再有感觉了啊..

 

finished cal1 n chem test.

next, gotta make up for geo n LA..

 

最近成日同Ying Ying倾女仔野,

PU.五知讲咩好.

i'm not expecting anything, n i know it's not gonna happen to me lar,

so你地尽管make fun lar~